He is Back Again!
2013.11.16 Fountain Pen Drawing
“Let’s send one of the unstable ones to the sedation room later.”
“Okay.”
I couldn’t help but asked my two colleagues who at the time held a man
in their arms, “Didn’t he just leave? What happened this time?”
The man said hopelessly, ”The treatment didn’t work. I told my
roommate I wanted to kick the door.”
“Did you kick it?”
He shook his head slowly.
He stayed at the sedation room for the next couple of days, often
dazing off and shaking. But this time was different, he made no sound. Having
observed him for a while, I knew self-control was particularly difficult for
him – a man with manic psychosis.
However, my colleagues thought differently, “When can I go back?”
“Depends on what the doctors say.”
“May I visit the doctor now?”
“The psychiatrist isn’t always on duty.”
“Sir, can you help me? I really don’t want to stay here. It scared me
last time, I don’t want to be back again.”
“At least you did not kick the door. And you did try very hard to
cooperate with us. You could tell the doctor about that.”
“Okay.”
When he met the doctor, he was fidgety as he didn’t know whether he
would be staying or leaving.
“Don’t waste the doctor’s time and only speak what is necessary.”
“Okay.”
He came back with a smile and picked his belongings up. However,
unknown to him is the unchanging fact that…
“He will be back.”
“That’s right, our society casts out the mental disabled especially
here in prison. No one wants to share a cell with a psychopath, especially
one who talks to himself and shakes uncontrollably. People try to avoid him, otherwise why
would his cellmates tell the staff that he wanted to kick the door?”
In our high-risk workplace, no one likes to be associated with
problems. As for me, I often think about that the sedation room as a place
where I can protect prisoners’ safety and order. And of course, to minimize
any possible risk of danger. That involves sending the ”unstable” and
”psychopaths” away, but how do we define “unstable” and what amounts to a
“disorder”?
Don’t ask me, I don’t even know myself …
~ ~ Please come again! ~
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「好。」
看兩位同仁帶著的人，我禁不住問：
「不是才剛回去嗎？這次又幹嘛？」
他眼神渙散無奈地說：
「藥好像壓不住，我跟同房的說覺得坐不住想踹房門。」
「踹了嗎？」
他緩緩搖頭。
接下來的幾天他在鎮靜室，無時不發呆，無刻不晃身子，和上回以及住院時不一樣，這回他並不吵，對看過他躁症發作的我來說，這樣的自制力已算是難能可貴了，但在每個值勤同仁心中的考核標準並不一致：
「我什麼時候可以回去？」
「要看醫生怎麼說。」
「那我現在可以看醫生嗎？」
「精神科不是每天有。」
「主管，你可不可以幫我啦！我真的不想待這裡啦！上一次我就怕了，以後不想再來了。」
「至少你沒真的踹門，而且你這次都有盡力配合作息，這你可以跟醫生講。」
「好。」
看診時刻到了，他坐立難安，不知這回是去是留⋯⋯
「跟醫生喬的時候，只講該講的，不要跟他盧。」
「好⋯⋯」
回來時他帶著愉快的笑容打包，但他再怎麼開心都改變不了既定的事實⋯⋯
「他一定會再來的。」
「沒錯，就跟社會上一樣，精神病患被排擠是必然的，何況這裡是監獄，沒人喜歡和精神病同房，而且他會自言自語，身子晃不停，人家看了就討厭，要不然同房怎會跟你們這些主管扒說他想踹門？」
在我們高度風險的職場裡，沒有人會願意自己服務的單位出狀況，但我常想鎮靜室本是維護收容人身體、生命安全，防止擾亂秩序做為收容保護之用，能讓危險因子降至最低當然是我們最想做的事，把「情緒不穩」、「精神異常」的人往這裡送自然方便省事，但「不穩」、「異常」的標準又要如何什界定？
別問我，我並不知道⋯⋯
～歡迎再度光臨～
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