Bargaining Chips 籌碼2014.07.08 Fountain Pen Drawing 鋼筆

He kept talking with me about his past and seemed to fear being forgotten by the world in an ambulance rushing to the hospital.
He was sentenced to life imprisonment for drug-trafficking and was released on parole after serving 20 years of his sentences
He worked plenty of jobs as a fish vendor, a newspaper delivery man, a direct marketing salesman, etc. while he was on probation.  He did not work for long at any of the jobs because the income could never compare with what he gained from drug trafficking.
"I wasted many years in the jail. Of course I had to make a fortune to make up for it,” he said. He spent all of his saving to establish a factory for drug manufacturing. He indeed earned a lot of money but eventually paid a high price. He was arrested and sentenced to life imprisonment again. Taking revocation of parole and execution of the previous uncompleted sentence into account, he had to serve at least 40 years of his sentence. His mother was constantly at his side and visited him in jail frequently, which  made him feel the warmth of her concern, although conversely, his father not only never visited him even once, he even swindle people using his name and social connections. His wife and children left and lost contact with him. The spoils of drug manufacturing had been divvyed up and became the cause of family disputes. The foreign caretaker hired to look after his bedridden loving mother, who had suffered a stroke, had become an object his brothers fought over. In the end, his father and brothers were all against each other and no one took care of his mother. Hearing about that made him feel miserable.
"If a remission of prison sentences had been granted in 2011 [for the 100th anniversary of the founding of the Republic of China], these problems would not exist. I assumed the remission of prison sentences could lead to my early release, and that was why I danced with the Devil. I did not expect that my family wouldn’t visit me anymore, that my sentence would be longer than my lifetime, or that my mother....." he said sadly.
I felt sorry for him and also surprised that he treated the anticipated remission as a bargaining chips which was not under his control. Without any bargaining chips in hand, he lost everything, his family, his love and his entire life.

救護車火速奔馳,他像是怕被世界遺忘似的,一路上跟我說著他的往事⋯⋯
先是走私毒品被判無期徒刑,蹲過二十多年的苦窯後終於假釋重獲自由。
保護管束期間他做了許多的工作,賣魚、送報、做直銷……,只是怎麼也做不久,這些再怎麼賺錢,可都沒有當年販毒賺的多呀!

「坐牢浪費了那麼多年,當然要賺一筆大的回來!」

他用所有的積蓄搞了間工廠,開始做起製毒的生意,錢是賺到了,但代價不斐,他再次被逮又再判無期徒刑,還得服完上次撤銷假釋的殘刑,算算至少還要再關個四十年⋯⋯
老母不離不棄時時來監獄看他,讓他感受到一絲溫暖,老父不但從不來看探卻還利用他的人脈到處招搖撞騙;而妻子更帶著孩子遠走自此失聯⋯⋯
當年他販毒製毒賺的錢不僅早被瓜分殆盡,還成為家人爭執的禍因,就最疼他的老母都中風臥床,申請來的外籍看護工卻成了兄弟們爭奪的對象,老父兄弟還因此反目成仇,聽到老母沒人照顧他好生痛苦。

「要是民國一百年有減刑的話,就沒有這些問題了,我就是想如果當年有減刑不會關太久才敢幹這一票的,沒想到換來的是家人不來、刑期比命還長,我的老母還⋯⋯」他難過地說。


我為之惋惜也頗感訝異,民國百年減刑這這握在別人手上的籌碼他竟也可以拿來賭,手上沒籌碼的他徹徹底底的輸了,輸了親情,輸了愛,也輸掉了人生⋯⋯

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